A month and a day ago, I got married to the best human I've ever known (Congrats Aki!). It was the best wedding everrrrr (as if I've had a lot in the past?). But anyway, I'm not here for that.
It's still related though, cause I will start this entry with the words "After I got married...
I suddenly had the urge to re-arrange our house and get rid of all trash (i.e. things though properly stored aren't of any use to my husband and I). Maybe it's the thought that I'm in this new chapter and my house needed a honeymoon too? Or that I've always dreamed of living in a white house.. as in a house that is white (of course), all white, and the only accent would be my indoor plants that make all things pretty and air so fresh.. I've always wanted to build a home where you really get to relax and more importantly where my kids would want to be in.. all the time.. ALL THE TIME.. especially at night.. AT NIGHT.
First order of business was my closet. It was full of dirt (as in Forever 21, H&M, Zara, Topshop, River Island, Mango, etc.) that I hoarded since I earned my own kaching out of College. In my defense, I had been hoarding due to trauma and to cut the long story short, a family member burnt all my clothes when I was in College and I was left with my Southville uniform, bra, and panty that I was wearing. Hooray! Later on I figured it was a waste of space and money, I had a harder time choosing which piece to wear, and I ended up wearing the clothes I've worn some days ago because they're most comfortable for me. A day ago I've decided to sell 90% of it and talked to Tipay Caintic, my trusted designer (I'd like to believe now a friend also) about making basic and sustainable clothing pieces for me in the colors black, nude, and gray only. Like how Tipay puts it, it was so Steve Jobs of me. But actually, a lot of successful and happy people that I know wear the same outfits to work. I truly believe this is what we call "Freedom". Freedom from what the society tells us to do, which is to be on trend all the time and that retail is well, therapy. WHEN IN REALITY IT IS NOT.
Now, after 29 years, I came to know one most important fact, and that is GOD IS THE ONLY THERAPY WE WILL EVER NEED IN OUR LIFE. It's a beautiful coincidence that after our wedding, Aki and I decided to pray the rosary daily, him while driving to work, and I at 10 AM cause I feel like that's when my focus is at its peak. After praying the rosary, I read this book entitled "'The Power of a Praying Woman"by Stormie Omartian (not an X-Men), and then write my reflections in my 2018 Ban.do Planner. Why the specifics? Well I love the planner so much. See my Good Day Starter Kit:
Also very recently, I've decided to read the Bible REGULARLY. I used to just open my YouVersion app from time to time but this time I've decided to really get deeper into God's words. Why? I don't know why. I am not currently suffering from depression or anxiety, nor I feel like I'm not in the best place of my life. Rather, I feel that my life has never been this so full and real that I seem to always look for God, to thank Him, praise Him, worship Him, and of course ask for food for my husband and I.
What am I trying to say? I just wanted to let you know that I'm a good person.
Kidding. I am so far from it.
I just wanted to share this part of my life called "The Spiritual Awakening". You know, when you pray and hear mass regularly but then you feel like you can still up the game? I believe this is God's lambing to me that He loves me so much He wants more of Him in me. I AM SO FLATTERED. I feel so beautiful right now, a haba ng hair moment.. and I pray that all of us can experience this moment too, when you suddenly feel that you WANT God, not NEED God.
Therefore... what's up with the title of this entry?
My purpose for decluttering and going back to just the basics have become deeper that I expected.
I suddenly feel that my "spiritual awakening" and change of lifestyle are holding hands (like hand in hand, haha, funny). I feel that both came at the right moment because:
1. I now know the things that I really need to be here, present, in this life.'
2. I now know the things that gives me joy.
3. I got rid of most of my material possessions, which is in itself a sacrifice that symbolizes my genuine trust in God. I want God to know that no matter what I have, or don't have, I will praise, worship, and love Him just the same, and that I trust that He is all I need in my life.
ANG SARAP DIBA? Lalo na pag nabenta ko na lahat ng damit ko. Kaya please visit my facebook page and buy the remaining items. Hahaha nag-plug?!
And because you finished reading this, I now give you my present, from no other than God Himself..
Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than them? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
Matthew 6:25-27
